Friday, October 17, 2008


I remembered a lesson I learned at my daughter's birth: Love is multiplied; not divided. Thanks J, hope you have a great time this weekend and thanks for reminding me of this. Love you 2 jmexxx

true doublethink

i have noticed a really strange but true behavior pattern i can not stand. I have had some really bad confrontaions with my sister or husband or daughter. after the fight starts, instead of countering my statements and proving me wrong they attack by throwing my words back at me. if I said for example "stop talking back to me and go clean your room" to my daughter she would say "i am not talking back to you!". Or i told my sister i could not take her somewhere for sure and she said something like "tell me when you can take me or I will take a cab!" I said "it is not safe going to the store alone, stop threatening me". And she would say "i'm not threatening you! So the main point i am argueing about never even gets discussed! ( or rarely). Instead I wouldput myself on the victim role and be such an EXCELLENT martyr and allow my personal buttons to be pushed. It makes me more nuts then even I can deal with.

Another behaviour I can not stand is when someone wields that double edged sword : like a mother I saw once in a big store. she was slapping her child and saying "I TOLD YOU (slap) NOT TO HIT". Everyone in my family at times is really like this without realizing it, and in none of these criticisms am I exempt! But it is almost as I have been stereotyped as the one who interrupts , repeats myself, and yells. HELLO! My sister asked me not to lash out as some kind of pre-condition when i went to LA to help her. Then she spends a lot of the time lashing out at me. .... i know that she and other sis and brother and ME do not see their faces our hear their or our tone. It is so far removed from loving attitudes. i wish I could tape such an interaction or video it and let them watch it . The whole time I was in LA I was anxious like I was about to get yelled at or in trouble. it was quite ironic and I kept trying to talk about it. My sister was the only one in my family I could be honest and healthy with telling her my emotions and reactions honestly. This time it was like all the previous growth never happened. I am not innocent, but I sure see myself clearly now!

like alcohol to an alcoholic

A true friendship is just like alcohol to the alcoholic. It dosen't matter how long it has been, you take off just where you left.

more on politics..election, opinions

Am i the only one?

Am i the only one who cares that Sarah Palin is so close to possibly being the president and can not handle a PRESS CONFERENCE ?
Now "Joe the Plumber" has had more press conferences then our VP candidate for the Republican party... And boy i bet now McCain wishes he had looked into joe the plumber a bit more before he redirected his campaign to make this "average American" the focus. he sounded pretty DUMB, his name is really Sam and I think he said he is not a plumber! ok I guess I should be happy because McCain must be in trouble if he makes this guy the center now of his media campaign. his more cogent statement was how he hated social security and he already has parents and does not need more parents telling him what to do (ie the government)

So why is it OK for Palin to say Obama is palling around with TERRORISTS? Ayers who is now a university president? he served on some kind of committee in Illinois to help advise what could be done for educational reforms in their state. there were Republicans on this board too, and Obama has mentioned, he was 8 years old when Ayers carried out a bombing which he served in jail for and in the years since, got a PhD and became a professor...ok a negative campaign sucks anyway, but to invoke the word "terrorist" in the same sentence as your opponent?
I am glad Obama does not rise to the occasion and get mad. i am a bit surprised that McCain looked so MEAN and angry in all those cut away shots during the debate. it was like he really had true disdain and had almost CONTEMPT for Obama . If a President can not control his temper or reign in his reactions i do not think i want him negotiating some kind of nuclear weapons showdown with Russia! Don't you need a good poker face as a President?

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Rest of the story..CNN, etc Do-loops

Ok, all the blogenters start with ok...maybe i can jus write without caps or quotes or even punctuation... Ok again. last post did crashafter many paragraphs just when i began to drop my guard .i never even finished the sentence about the marriage. bet you all thought i was talking about my own marriage... so you think i talk in run on sentences; checkout this blog! trying still to say I have been so impressed with the marriage of many mediums on cnn, and it is almost surreal. i find it fascinating to watch the twitter board on rick sanchez. i mean imagine people writing 150 characters or less, seeming succinct comments ( and obviously a great excersise for me!) scrolling across a huge monitor in real time ( do i detract from my impression of any intelligence with my poor spelling? and by the way if i check it, it crashes) in real time being televised and discussed on television by rick sanchez! it is truly mind blowing and another thing that my mind goes into an infinite do-loop( ahh memories of Basic!) . the telivising of the television ... it reminds me of a cereal box i we had when I was a kid: a box with a picture of a kid on the box sitting at a table eating the cereal with a box of the cereal on the table with a picture of a kid on the box sitting at a table eating the cereal ... well you get the message and finally I have used the dot dot dot properly. i used to sit and stare at the box trying to imagine how many pictures of the box on a box my mind could think of at one time. ok my mind is susceptible to weird do-loops. that is by the way and endless circle of a command from Basic that tells a program to do something and return to the beginning of the task and do it again, and again, and watching rick sanchez on television watch a television posting commend while he sometimes types too... A successful marriage of technologies. a reporter or rather now, a journalist must do more things at once to get our attention and keep it. i guess maybe the average veiwer on CNN is talking on a cell phone by Bluetooth while watching rick sanchez on CNN and typing at the same time on a notebook computer which is on the Internet on the same twitter page that to k sanchez is on being televised on the television ... And then what happens when rick sanchez then televises the comment made by the person watching on television while he posts.... Ok will post so not lost ( why do you say poooost and lost? It should rhyme...)

on the election...twitter ....CNN

Ok so here we go, need to daily write, how can I be a writer if I do not write? How can I have a beautiful bicycle sitting there that I saved money for for a LONG time...and not ride. Here in the desert no longer at 100 degrees and STOL my bum- bum as my daughter says is in bed all day today; and not having fun either..sick to my stomach etc etc... I have tried really hard to stay off the ever never ending topic of headaches and health, or lack of it... Will try.. Or as Yoda says... How come all my sentences contain ALL CAPITAL WORDS. And lots.... And lots of ........ Dot dot dots? What are these called? Miss S you may know. Thank you with all my heart you are my FIRST comment, definantly you warm my heart and for a hangs that is not sarcastic,, NOT sarcastic.

I love CNN and can not seem to get over the marrying or marriage of, sorry my spelling is so shitty... SSS to coin a phrase Spelling So Shitty... Maybe my words will make up for my spelling. I do not know weather wheather? Wether? I love or hate this predictive text system on the iPhone etc. I know it is supposed to help type quickly but it is definantly for me a true circular arguement thing. See, it learns the frequency that one uses on the device. Great huh? Not so if , like me, you have certain words you just DO NOT (here we go again with the parentheses) you MISspell some words consistently !! It will learn the wrong spelling and begin to suggest it! I am going to post this because this keeps crashing and I do not want to lose this potentially award winning blogging....ha ha ( read with sarcastic. Tone)

Thursday, October 2, 2008

win a few post a few

ok i made 2 posts from my iphone and after the new 2.1 software it is still crashing, goes back to main  menu from safari and obliterates the post or whatver you are working on but i am going to try to train dictate and then...well dicate.  Miss S my wonderful friend from the Community Center of St Bernard found my blog and their is nothing on it yet!!!!  Wow that really made me smile, one reader is a reader!  Ok Miss S I will try to write of my thoughts and adventures of daily living to give you something to read, thats the goal, and you can tell me what you think too....long as it is with respect i do not care if you agree or not with me but just do not confuse agreement with understanding or liking with agreement.  ok soon more...promise.  Hey Miss S shuld I put a better picture of my face? This feels like me though, what about the sunset vs the face with cat?  cuz that kind of expresses me too.